Friday, August 30, 2013

Plastic Tumbleweeds

I felt so good leaving the HEB without a cart full of plastic bags shimmying in the wind. I remember the days when one or two items went into a thin, already shredding plastic bag, haphazardly tossed onto the mounting pile of carcinogenic grocery movers, handles blowing around like used party streamers. 

I have heard the static over Austin's plastic bag ban. I know that it is inconvenient and smacks of 1984 and Big Brother and all that, but gosh it sure felt good to be part of the solution. And as I walked in the safety of the yellow crosswalk lines, and glanced into the parking lot, there were no air-filled, balloon like, plastic tumbleweeds that needed chasing down and stomping on to prevent them from heading toward the nearest aquifer recharge zone. What a stress reliever!

And that's when you say, "Ahh, but you must be good at remembering to bring your reusable bags." Anyone who knows me, knows I am not good at remembering anything; and especially lacking in the planning ahead department, so no,  no, I did not have my reusable bags. I had a cart full of melting ice cream and frozen pizza, helplessly defrosting in the open, 104 degree temps of Central Texas and I still felt good knowing I wasn't part of the problem for one moment in time.

When I first heard about the plastic island out there in the Pacific Ocean I was paralyzed by grief, and then I was mobilized to action. I helped my local elementary school collect plastic caps (until the city began accepting those with single stream recycling), I picked up every piece of plastic trash within a 30 foot radius of wherever I was, all the time! I organized an Earth Day Fair for the kids at school-and still felt guilt and sadness over the state of our oceans. 

These days, I have settled into a nice middle ground, I do what I can. Should I be doing more? Probably. I try to carpool as often as possible, I recycle my household items dutifully, and I refuse to water my lawn. But yes, I did need that mandate from the Austin City Council to disallow me from taking plastic bags by the pounds home with me ever year. Sometimes the guilt just isn't enough. I despise big brothers telling little sisters what to do. I hate it! But I love a cleaner planet more. 

Thursday, February 7, 2013

What's Right for Me


My kids no longer depend on me for wiping noses or doing their laundry.  Why am I still a stay-at-home-mom?

For some women, working full-time is not a choice. Or, it’s a choice to stay sane.  For me, full-time work and being a mom is not an option. My decision to “stay home” isn't about making a statement. It comes from an acceptance of my workaholic personality, knowing my marriage, and a commitment I made 14 years ago. 

While working, I traveled, made money, advanced. Pressures and long hours dominated. I loved it -using my expertise and degree… I put my career above all.

 There are external (and internal) pressures to jump back in the fray. Tempting? Yes! However, 3-5 pm is magical. They climb into the car; spotlight on each one, and tell me everything. They know I am listening. They know I’m there. I’m not ready to give that up.

By 6 pm, their hard drive is wiped and reset for the next day.

I’m doing what I said I would; suspending my life while witnessing theirs. 

Center-stripe

I'm living life in the middle of the road. Sounds dangerous? Well, sometimes. There are people in this world who see things in black and white. I prefer grey. I prefer to cruise the line and get a good view of both sides of the street. You will see that reflected in my blog, center-stripe -and reflected in my life. Hop in! Come on this ride with me. Catch the panoramic view from the middle of the road! Hopefully, we won't get a ticket!